work has been really crazy for me.

for the past 2 weeks plus, i havent been out with my friends.
no parties.
no dinners together.
no gossiping sessions.
no supper.
no alchohols.
no nothing.

no everything, but...
work
work
work

and also,
proposals
costings
emails
incidental reports
researches
analysis

after taking over the new sectors,
this learning curve is getting steeper.

like many will say, if i can overcome my banking clients,
there is nothing else i cant do.
banking clients are known to be very demanding and difficult.
even my boss says that, no matter what sales you are in,
managing the banking sectors is always the best.

sometimes, i wonder.
life is mine to decide.
i can choose to take a 9 to 6 job.
no stress. no targets.
can party all i want.
of course, $$ is another issue.
but there again, you earn more, you spend more.
isnt the net net amount at the end the SAME?


another challenge at work:
unlike the most common problem that many face,
i am facing the opposite.
for many, they gained the support of their fellow colleagues,
but hardly the boss.
for me, my boss really support me.
but it seems that my colleagues think likewise.
perhaps to them, i am not up to it as yet.

well, they can be right.
but i will prove them wrong instead of grumbling.
Grumbling is seriously a time waster.

meishan. you can do it.

on a lighter note, if i am ever going into another relationship,
i will make sure that the other party is much older than me.
say at least 8 years? :)

i begin to realise that all i need in a relationship right now,
or rather what i'm looking for in a guy,
is no longer just hugs or kisses.

i'm attracted to very intelligent guys.
guys who can seriously hold a conversation with me.
who have lots of life experiences.
who will guide me in my life journey.
who will be much stronger than i am.
who will make me feel stupid because he knows so much more than me.
who has a stable career.
played enough and is willing to settle down with me.


and afterall i guess i am beginning to agree with:
Older guys will dote on you more.
They will give you more happiness. (not just $$)
Instead of loving somemore more than they do love you,
the best kind of happiness is being loved.

As much as i have mentioned above, where on earth do i have time to get into another r/s.
i seriously even have problem FINDING TIME TO SHIT!